This War You Had to Wage (Spirit of the Age, Michael Card)

"I wanna know why. I wanna know that Sun and Jin and Sayid didn't die for nothing."
- Kate, What They Died For


I've been trying to get into the heads of each of the major Island players as they move into the final chapter, and I've had a harder time getting a handle on Kate than most. But I think I have a pretty good understanding of where she's coming from, and I don't begrudge her the angry questions she hurls at Jacob. Here's Kate to the tune of Michael Card's Spirit of the Age.

This War You Had to Wage

My eyes are red from crying for Jin, Sayid and Sun,
And I can’t stop thinking of their little girl Ji Yeon.
So what Locke said to Sawyer... Swear to me he lied.
I cannot continue till you tell me why they died.

So Jacob, did you care about the wailing?
What about the sorrow and the rage?
It’s time that you apologized for killing
Victims of this war you had to wage!

You seem so understanding, benevolent and kind.
But does it even bother you that we left them behind?
And what about my number? How come it has been crossed?
Is that your way of saying that all hope for me is lost?

So Jacob, did you care about the wailing?
What about the sorrow and the rage?
It’s time that you apologized for killing
Victims of this war you had to wage!

The accidents and murders that piled up here in Hell
Ought to haunt you even if you only meant us well.
If you’re to be our mentor, our shining spectral sage,
Say sorry for the victims of this war you had to wage!

So Jacob, did you care about the wailing?
What about the sorrow and the rage?
It’s time that you apologized for killing
Victims of this war you had to wage!

Because of me, my best friend died for nothing,
And ever since I’ve craved a blank page.
So how can you accept there are so many
Victims of this war you had to wage?
The victims of this war you had to wage...

Spirit of the Age

I'll Never Leave You (Yankee Bayonet, Colin Meloy)

Sun: Go!  Please... go!
Jin: I won't leave you. I will never leave you again...  I love you, Sun.
- The Candidate

I've been casting about for a fitting tribute to Sun and Jin ever since The Candidate, but it wasn't until my brother Nathan mentioned that I ought to dip into the Decemberists that I realized the perfect song for LOST's doomed couple was lurking just out of earshot. I tried to incorporate several elements of their journey - Sun's naive girlhood dreams, Jacob's blessing, the difficulties they worked through together and Ji Yeon, the "flower of wisdom". Here's Jin and Sun to the tune of the Decemberists' Yankee Bayonet.

I’ll Never Leave You

Jin: Captured glimpses of my unknown treasure -
Such a sweet surprise!
Sun: Far from this sub that I’ve no hope of escaping,
That’s where our daughter lies.

Go, Jin, go, please, go, Jin, go.
Please, go, Jin, go, please go.

Jin: Look at me. Can you see the love
That has sustained me through these years?
Sun: I carried it with me as our young flower blossomed
In the midst of my anguished tears.

Go, Jin, go, please, go, Jin, go.
Please, go, Jin, go, please go.

Jin: No, Sun, no, Sun, no, Sun.
No, Sun. No, Sun. No, Sun. No.

Our love is so blessed.
I’ll never take it for granted, Sun.
Together, we will rest,
For I’ll never leave you. I’ll never leave you.
I’ll never leave you. I’ll never leave you. No.

Sun: When I was a girl, I believed when I found my love,
My world would have no pain.
Jin: But oh, for a moment within your sunshine,
I would face a lifetime of rain.

Sun and Jin: Oh, you know I love you so.
You know I love you so.

Jin: We’ve come to the end, but we leave here together,
And we’ll only be apart for a while.
Sun: But Jin, you can live. You can save yourself
And you can go and be with our child.

Go, Jin, go, please, go, Jin, go.
Please, go, Jin, go, please go.

Jin: No, Sun, no, Sun, no, Sun.
No, Sun. No, Sun. No, Sun. No.

Our love is so blessed.
I’ll never take it for granted, Sun.
Together, we will rest,
For I’ll never leave you. I’ll never leave you.
I’ll never leave you. I’ll never leave you.

Jin: You have my heart, so take my hand.
Jin and Sun: I’ll always love you.
Sun: A love as vast as stars and sand.
Jin and Sun: I’ll always love you.

Jin: It’s time, my love, for our fingers to be parted.
Let our last embrace begin.
Sun: Let my lips speak the only language
That we need as we drift away, Jin.

Sun and Jin: Oh, you know I love you so.
You know I love you so.
Oh, you know I love you so.
You know I love you so.

The Ballad of Frank Lapidus (Pecos Bill, Eliot Daniel / Johnny Lange)

I was bummed out that Frank Lapidus was booted so ingloriously from the show, without so much as a sad word from Hurley afterward. I've always regarded Frank Lapidus as having a bit of a folk hero quality about him, so I couldn't resist memorializing him to the tune of that rollicking ode to Pecos Bill introduced to me by the Disney cowboy album Pardners.  (Post-finale note: Frank survived!  Yay!  But I figure a folk hero usually has wildly different accounts of his life, so I'll let this stand...)

The Ballad of Frank Lapidus

Well, Frank Lapidus was a pilot with a passion.
With precision, he prevented accidents.
He never crumbled in a panic when he flew for Oceanic,
Thanks to stellar skills and simple common sense.

So hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.
Hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.

Charlotte, Dan and Miles hopped in a helicopter,
And the chopper, it was piloted by Frank,
So in that bit of the Pacific, though the weather was horrific,
They all made it out, and he’s the one to thank.

So hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.
Hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.

Well, he flew Jack and his buddies off the Island -
And then three years later, flew them back again.
He shrewdly showed that he could steer a massive airplane from Ajira
To the landing strip that was engineered by Ben.

So hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.
I said, hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.

After hijacking a sub along with Sawyer,
Frank Lapidus heard a devastating boom.
It was a prelude to his dyin‘, but at least he went out flyin’
When the door sent him a-soarin’ ‘cross the room.

So hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.
I said, hip-hip-hooray, hooray! What a great guy-uy-uy.
Yeah, that Frank Lapidus really knew how to fly.

Pecos Bill

"They're Leaving Us!" "No, Trust Me. You Don't Want to Be On That Sub."

“Well, that was about the most depressing episode of LOST ever.” So said my dad after watching The Candidate, and his thoughts were echoed by most of the people whose initial reactions I’ve been reading online. This was a major downer. Shocking and explosive and infuriating all at once, and yet also incredibly touching, with three major characters dying in ways that felt meaningful and fitting. And apparently one major character who kinda got the short end of the stick. More on those later, which will contain copious comparisons to major deaths in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, so if you’re waiting for the movie to find out about those, be warned...

So The Candidate was a Jack episode after all, and next week is when we get Smokey’s backstory. After seeing the preview, I thought, “They’re going to try to make us all feel sorry for Smokey now, and feel that he’s in the right. After what he did tonight? I don’t think so.” But Doc Jensen posted a short interview with Darlton, and they said that the purpose of tonight’s bloodbath was to unambiguously indicate that Smokey is evil. So it’s probably safe to assume that the point of next week’s episode isn’t to make all of us Jacob-philes jump ship to Team Smokey. Though could it still lead to us hating Jacob? I fear it could. We’ll see.

There was no Previously On LOST this week, just a cold open on John’s pristinely white pillow as he came to after surgery. Yet even that experience didn’t jolt either of them into Island awareness. Throughout the episode, Jack continues to encounter people who had been on the flight with him, and he finds that increasingly bizarre, and when John is semi-conscious, he repeats phrases from his Island life, and his memory seems triggered by seeing Jin and hearing Jack’s “I wish you believed me,“ but neither of them is truly aware of the other reality. You’re running out of time, guys...

I loved the meeting with Bernard, who we haven’t seen since the season premiere, and the conversation with Claire, which was much more the sort of thing I wanted to see from their Island reunion, which would have felt even more satisfying because of their shared history. But I have a feeling that their Sideways selves will start to remember very soon.

As has generally been the case, the Sideways storyline was much happier than the Island storyline. John survives his surgery; Jack starts to bond with Claire; Bernard turns up, once again radiating wisdom and contentment. But there was sadness sprinkled in as well. John may be a “candidate” for surgery that could restore his ability to walk, but he doesn’t want it.

Why? Because he believes that he deserves to be in that wheelchair. Whereas Island Anthony paralyzed John (maliciously), Sideways John paralyzed Anthony (and himself, accidentally). Terry O’Quinn was heartbreaking in the scene recollecting that fateful plane crash - one that injured rather than undoing injury. The reversal of Jack and John in their Man of Science / Man of Faith statuses was especially clear here as they inverted the conversation about the ease of belief / letting go.

Given Sawyer’s investigation, it seems likely that Anthony still conned Sawyer’s parents. So what changed? Did he reform as a result of forming a relationship with his son, or out of remorse for what happened to the Fords? I’m going to assume that John and his dad didn’t meet until after the murder-suicide, which would make John at least in his twenties at the time. I can’t see him having this warm, meaningful relationship with his son all through his growing-up years while roaming the country coldly huckstering people. But who knows? What I do know is that for the first time really, I felt sorry for Anthony. In his current Sideways form, he really is a pathetic sight. And Helen’s consideration for him makes me like her even more. Of course, I like Sideways Helen better than her Island world counterpart; I always thought Helen was expecting a little too much of John for him to just completely cut his father out of his life, even if that clearly was what was best for him.

Anyway, lots of great Sideways scenes with oodles of connections to previous episodes, from catch-phrases to Catch a Falling Star, and some fantastic Jack-John interaction. But it’s hard to focus on that very much with such monumental things happening on the Island itself.

Compelling question: Where is Zoe? Much more compelling question: Where are Richard, Ben and Miles? And what exactly was Charles up to for most of this episode? What would have happened if Jack and Sayid hadn’t followed Smokey’s orders, or if Sawyer and company had refused to leave their captivity? And is it possible that Kate is still a Candidate, but one whose eligibility Jacob has managed to keep secret?

I’m very curious about who exactly rigged up the airplane. Smokey says Widmore. I don’t know if I buy it. I’m not at all sure that Smokey could be killed even with a massive explosion, and I think Charles knows that. And I don’t think he wants all of the Candidates dead, at least not yet. Jin, at least, seemed valuable to him; I wonder if he was able to accomplish anything that Charles wanted done. It doesn’t seem likely to me that Richard and the gang would’ve set the plane up to explode. Partly, I don’t think they would’ve wanted to kill anybody other than Smokey if they could avoid it; conversely, maybe Richard, recalling his Black Rock experience with Jack, would have figured that with the Candidates on board, the explosives would fail. Mostly, though, I think they would have simply blown the plane up right then and there instead of laying a trap that could be foiled.

So ultimately, my guess is that Smokey put down the C4 himself. This makes two times that “Locke” has blown up a submarine with C4. Must get a real charge out of it! Anyway, he didn’t seem too surprised to see the explosives on the plane, and showing them to the castaways was the perfect way to gain their momentary trust. And of course, he did exactly what he told them Charles was doing. It’s fascinating to think of all the many ways in which Smokey has manipulated these people over a long stretch of time. And Sawyer, who thought he could pull off his most audacious con yet... Sadly, Smokey was one step ahead the whole time, though I didn‘t realize just how nicely everyone played into his hand until just before the commercial break when he glared so sinisterly and told Claire she didn’t want to be on the sub.

Sawyer made me so sad in this episode. On the one hand, he was being proactive and heroic, trying to outwit Smokey and save his friends. And at least he clearly felt badly about abandoning Claire yet again. (Smokey, meanwhile, seemed pleased with this turn of events. He appears to be protective of her. Why? Does he have some sort of sentimental attachment, or did he figure his plan might fail and she could come in handy if it did?) But I so wanted Sawyer not to simply take off in the sub, and I really wanted him to trust Jack as he delivered his pleading speech as the timer ticked down. But he couldn’t make that leap of faith which, granted, was a hard jump to take. If Jack is tied in knots over Juliet, Sawyer is about to have some major pangs over Sun and Jin.

Sun and Jin, whose arc came to a bittersweet close with this episode. In a placid moment, they discussed Ji Yeon, and Jin put his wedding ring back on. And this tranquil domestic scene brings to mind two sad conclusions I’ve come to following their demise. Assuming that Sun took it and didn’t just put it back where she found it, she probably still had Charlie’s ring when she died, and it went down with the sub. Disappointing.

Second, I get the impression that Sun did not make any contact with Jin’s father after her return, but I had hopes that once she and Jin returned to Korea, he would come clean about his dad, she would come clean that she already knew about him, and they would invite him back into his life. Now, I fear Ji Yeon will never know her paternal grandpa; the Paiks don’t know he exists and would disapprove of him if they did. The only chance would be if Mr. Kwon sought her out himself, but given his personality, I can’t really see him going pounding on the Paiks’ door. I’d like to think there’s still a teensy chance of spotting him in Sideways world, but it doesn’t seem likely.

Of course, the main event of this episode was the shocking deaths of four major characters, along with the near miss of another one. When Kate got gunned down, I really thought for a moment that she might be done for, especially after Charles and Sawyer made a point of reiterating her superfluity. I’m not sure they’re right about that, but I was still really nervous about her. considering that Jack never even got the chance to administer first aid, she must not have been hurt too badly if she was able to make it up to the surface intact. Hooray for Hurley!

He didn’t get to do too much in this episode, and I was frustrated with him for agreeing to board the sub despite obvious misgivings. But he was in a tough position. What if he’d put his foot down and refused to leave? I don’t know if Sawyer would have been willing to go through with his plan if Hurley hadn’t been on board. He cares more about Hurley than anybody else on the Island, with the possible exception of Kate.

But I’m glad that Hurley got a heroic moment later when he got to swim Kate to safety, and then there was that moment on the beach. It seemed to take a second for it to sink in; at first he just sat there in silence, a trace of mist in his eyes, and I remarked that surely we’d see a more forceful reaction than that. And a moment later we did, violent and gut-wrenching, conveying a sense of despair and grief that spoke for us all. It’s only the second time he’s cried on the show, I think, the other being The Beginning of the End, and it was just painful to see.

There were three major death scenes in this episode, which I’ll discuss in order, from my favorite to least favorite. I loved Sayid’s death, which recalled both Charlie’s sacrifice in the Looking Glass and Juliet’s determination to detonate the bomb. Considering everything that has transpired, especially in the last season, it’s about the best outcome I could see for him, at least in Island world. Yes, it was sad to see him go, but so wonderful to see him so fully himself again, back to being the first-season take-action hero, willing to risk his life for others and using his technical savvy to improve their chances of rescue.

Before he died, he confirmed that he hadn’t killed Desmond, and “It’s going to be you, Jack” seems like a possible indication of Jack’s status as the ultimate replacement for Jacob. Then again, I think Sayid has always underestimated Hurley, who I still think may be the one for the job. At this point, I think I will be surprised if it isn’t one of those two - unless it’s nobody at all, or unless John is somehow restored. But if John can come back, I would think Jacob could too, rendering the Candidates unnecessary... Anyway, if we’re making comparisons to Deathly Hallows - and I am - Sayid’s death reminds me most of Dobby’s. Violent, messy, throwing himself in front of a dangerous weapon in order to shield his friends. Dobby’s sacrifice focused Harry, turning him from a corruptive path, while Sayid’s purified himself. As destructive as it was, it truly was a beautiful moment.

Then there was Sun and Jin. I knew from the moment I got a glimpse of Sun’s drained face even after she had supposedly been freed that she wasn’t going to make it. But would Jin stay with her? That was the question, and I wasn’t sure what I wanted the answer to be. I’m still not.

On the one hand, I wanted Jin to live, and had he left Sun at the last minute, he almost certainly would have survived. He could have helped Jack and the gang defeat Smokey; he could have returned to Korea to be a part of his daughter’s life and introduce her to her grandfather (though without Sun, access to Ji Yeon could be hard to attain); he could have lived a life in which a piece was always missing but which was still productive and meaningful. Instead of dying for her, he could have lived for her. I’ve never been all that enchanted by these stories in which one lover dies so the surviving, perfectly healthy lover commits suicide. While remaining with Sun to the end was a noble gesture, was a moment of shared company enough of a trade-off for all the living he had yet to do?

But Sun and Jin’s story has always been about their journey together. And from a story standpoint, I think it made more sense for their arc to end together, especially when you take Sideways world into consideration. If they die together on the Island, perhaps they can simply migrate together into their Sideways selves. At any rate, they, too, reminded me of Charlie in the Looking Glass, ultimately more than Sayid - the tranquility of it, the romantic aspect, the powerful hand imagery, the drowning, the sense of futility and, of course, that exquisite Giacchino music. This rendition of Life and Death was less lushly orchestral, more like the gentle patter of raindrops - or tears - as the water slowly engulfed them. Gorgeous.

Sun and Jin remind me of Lupin and Tonks. Their relationship was messy, and their baby made things even more complicated - in Harry Potter because of the werewolf blood, here because of the Island fertility nightmare. Ultimately, they came to a place of peace and happiness in their marriage to each other. Much as Tonks chose to leave her son to fight alongside her husband at the Battle of Hogwarts, Jin gave up the chance to take care of his daughter to remain with his wife as she died. Both orphaned their children, but just as Teddy became a part of the extended Weasley and Potter families, perhaps Ji Yeon will have extended family in the form of the remaining castaways. If any of them make it off the Island, I’d like to think they would make an effort to connect, if not now then sometime in the future, and tell her about her parents.

And then there was Frank, my least favorite of the deaths. Why? Because it happened so quickly and unceremoniously I was left wondering where he was at the end of the episode. Like a certain jovial jokester in Harry Potter who died pointlessly after being crushed by a wall, Frank, who has gotten some of the greatest one-liners of the series, took a window to the head. He’d acted heroically before his death, but his death itself was just bad timing, not to mention bad reaction time from him. If he’d just run through that hallway instead of pausing and looking worriedly at the creaking window, he probably could have made it out. Fred never had that chance. Both deaths left me feeling hollow.

What’s more, Fred’s death was noted with some of the most moving sentences of the entire book, like this one: "The world had ended, so why had the battle not ceased, the castle fallen silent in horror, and every combatant laid down their arms?" Granted, this was a character who was introduced in the sixth chapter of the first book and who quickly became like a big brother to Harry. Frank, in comparison with the big three who died this week, was a newbie. He’d only been around for half the series. Sawyer barely knew him at all, while the other three knew him mostly from their time together on Penny’s boat. Still, he’d been a friend to them. He saved Sawyer from Keamy, he dropped them the phone, he flew them off the Island.

And as much as I cared about Jin, Sun and Sayid, I don’t mind saying that he was my favorite of the four, even though his role was never as large as I would have liked. His was easily my favorite of the five flashbacks in Confirmed Dead, and I’m disappointed that he never got a full-blown flashback episode. Like Ilana, there was more to him than we got to see, and I was surprised the Island was done with him. But what really bugged me was that nobody even mentioned him. I’d like to think he was included in Hurley’s “What about everybody else?” but I don’t have great reason to think that. Maybe they just figured he was toast and figured they didn’t have time to confirm it. Didn’t he at least deserve a shout in his direction?

And later, when Kate asked about Sun and Jin, where were the inquiries about Frank? His injury probably didn’t kill him, but even if he managed to come to before the sub filled up completely, if he wasn’t above water by the time they were all gathered on the beach, I don’t see how he could have possibly survived. Maybe we’re supposed to still think of him as a wild card, but unless he’s as indestructible as Mikhail, I just can’t do that. Instead, what I’m seeing is a major character being tossed aside like a redshirt without so much as a “Gee, it’s a bummer that Frank died.” Maybe a more proper memorial will follow, but I’m not sure I’m holding my breath. Rotten luck, dude, going out the same time as Sun, Jin and Sayid.

So we leave this depressing, destructive week with a clearer idea of just how villainous Smokey is. Next week, with Across the Sea, which perhaps is where Jacob and Smokey come from, I expect a major mythological download comparable to Ab Aeterno but going back even further. I suspect that a lot of our questions will be answered next week. We’ll see Titus Welliver and Mark Pellegrino, and I’m hoping we might find out a little something about Ilana, but maybe the whole episode will take place hundreds or thousands of years ago. Will we finally find out Smokey’s name? Will we come to despise Jacob as much as Smokey? I hope for the former and fear the latter, but I’ll just have to wait and see. Only three episodes left...

Choice in an Underwater Cell (Poem on an Underground Wall, Paul Simon)

The Candidate is one of the most devastating episodes LOST has ever offered, yet amidst the shock and horror of the deaths that swiftly followed each other late in the episode, I felt uplifted by Sayid's decision to go out in a literal blaze of sacrificial glory.  Here's a reflection on that to the tune of Simon and Garfunkel's A Poem on an Underground Wall.  (The song itself starts at about 2:30, but if you've never heard Art's colorful introductory anecdote, it's well worth a listen.)

Choice in an Underwater Cell

The timer is running out,
A consequence of Sawyer’s doubt.
There‘s no time now for hesitation.
Sayid knows his friends‘ salvation
Depends upon his actions.

His tragic eyes, lit at last,
Return to Jack before the blast.
He divulges Smokey’s secret:
What it is, and how to seek it
When they return to dry land.

He grabs the bulky bomb and bolts
While others brace for jarring jolts.
So strong, courageous, clever, swift,
He’s experienced such a shift
Since he spoke to Desmond!

And he runs on defiantly,
Declaring his liberty
From his would-be master’s tyranny
In the hope his selfless bravery
Spares his cornered friends.

As far away from them he dashes,
The hall’s engulfed in flame and ashes.
This time he will not be rising,
But deep within the sub there lies
A true hero.

All around him, crashing, screaming, crying.
The captain‘s dead, the Kwons are dying.
Frank has flown his final flight,
But still Sayid has chosen right
By casting off the darkness
To embrace redeeming light.